sorry to bring probs here.
ddint know he would follow me from forum to forum
PMs work great, why would you post something like that ?
Maybe because it's true? You can choose to identify with it, or play the victim and use it for sympathy. You know my wife really appreciates it if I tell her something doesn't look good on her, when most women would be offended. She would rather hear the truth and not go out looking bad in an outfit, than me trying to patronize her.
While you might not realize it, your aggressiveness is a symptom of your psychosis, and so is the manner in which you treat your cats, and there are probably many other signs and symptoms in your life that you just don't realize. I'm not attacking you, I'm trying to make you see what others already do.
You know life doesn't treat one person better than another. Life treats everyone the same, and there is no bad luck in life. There are only choices, and people make choices based on a lot of different factors and variables in their life. I have an old saying when dealing with my children that goes like this: People are victims of their circumstances -- circumstances are given to you -- conscience decisions change circumstances. They all know it by heart. People make decisions in life, animals don't.
Yes, I can see you have had a hard life... there's no question about that. But let me ask you a question; if this were 1985, what would you think about the woman you now look at in the mirror every day? The answer to that question is going to be personal, just for you. So to follow up, why do you think you have had such a hard life? Any first year college psyc student in their Human growth and development class can tell you! It's because of a trauma(s) that created an emotional wound(s) that you didn't know how to deal with.
Choices were made, whether conscience or subconscious or even out of necessity matters not. Choices that forced you make decisions that created even more emotional scars, compounding your "bad luck." Do you think the average person would rob a bank and hold innocent people at gunpoint? Crime, alcoholism, drug addiction, aggressive behavior, anthropomorphism are all symptoms of emotional distress/scarring, and the reason why I chose to look up that article was not out of aggression, but out of sympathy, and in the hope you might see that you have a problem that needs addressing.
I know you can't see it, but your response to my first post to you the other day about the red text was in fact an aggressive attack on me. The post I made was a simple, "did you know" informational post, yet you took it as someone trying to tell you what to do -- it was not, and the posts that followed after that from other people prove this.
Sure, I responded aggressively to your posts after that, as most people would do, since it was me personally you were attacking. But then I decided to look more closely and read your last 150 posts. It was only after this that I decided to get out that book and possibly explain why you have so many confrontations with people. There used to be a TV show called, Intervention, and the people on that show experienced the same signs and symptoms with their loved ones -- aggressiveness, denial, etc.
If you think I'm the only one that sees it, you're greatly mistaken. As of this morning, I had 29 PMs from people who don't want to step up and say something, because they don't know what to say to some of the things you post and they don't want you attacking them.
So finally, and this will be the last post I make on the subject, you are at yet another crossroads in your life where you need to make a conscience decision. You can choose to hate me and use my posts to try and garner support from people to prove you're a victim, or you can use the information I copied to reassess your life, and perhaps take advantage of any programs available in jail to help heal your emotional wounds -- it's your choice.
I can tell you that if you do seek some help, everyone that does so honestly can get helped, and when they look at their life in retrospect, afterwards, they can't believe it's actually them they're looking at. Just look at where you are right now, and try to not bring up how the "past is coming back to haunt you".
What you are going to jail for is a direct consequence of your actions *today*. What was it that made you feel you had to try and run down another Human being with your car? I don't know anyone who has ever done that! Maybe you felt threatened, I don't know the whole story, but I don't have to. What I do know is, there is a 99% chance that your aggressive behavior contributed to situation making you believe that you needed to do what you did and there was no other way out.
The truth shall set you free! Haven't you lived your life with enough drama already? Only you can decide whether or not to change it, but you have to be truthful with yourself. I know you don't really want all these problems in your life and you don't have to have them. All you have to do is have the desire to change...
-Rich
